Stories

I can clearly recall the night I had my first orgasm. At that time, my parents had just upgraded the cable, and our free trial of Cinemax, or Skinemax as my brother joked, was still on going. Since I was a night owl, I would often flip through the guide in search of the latest and greatest, but one night I saw a title that was quite...arousing.

A few of you may know that I started to fade out of the daily face of Sub-Shop.com a while back, before our brief break from the site. I want to say thank you so much for all the letters of love, caring and support that we got when I took a break from modeling and eventually when we closed the site.

My life changed forever on June 4th. Something happened and I would never be the same. On June 4th, many years ago – I met my husband. The few years leading up to this were an unfortunately monotonous relationships of boyfriends who did not fulfill me and I had little, if any connection to.

I grew up in an all female household. I was never told that a woman couldn’t do something. I had always assumed that I could do whatever I set my mind to. And I felt that it was true for everyone.It never occurred to me that I was being oppressed or that I was not equal. I never once looked at a man and though “they have it easier”.

When my friends were dreaming of Prince Charming and their happily ever after, I was fantasizing about handcuffs and blindfolds. Not much has changed in my world since those early days. I was about 10 the first time I realized that the idea of bondage enticed me.